No longer engaged....single now.....packed up and moved up to Suwanee/Sugar Hill....Moo Cow doesn't want to be my friend anymore......too much to do......Straight A's.....4.0.......President's List.....Hard course load next semester.....Study Abroad in The Hague, Netherlands, and Amsterdam in June.

Still so much to unpack....unload.......unlove

I have been realizing lately that most of the contact I still have with friends now is almost completely initiated by myself. It's sad, but understandable that the main resource I have for keeping up with present and past friends is Facebook, but that's because a lot of my friends now live out of state or out of the country. Many friends are good at hittin me up every time I'm online on Facebook to chat, but it's mostly just smalltalk. Been tryin to keep up with friends through writing letters, but it's hard to keep track of and/or find time to write them.

I realize now though that a lot of people have found me easy to forget. We have all grown up. I know I'm busy all the time, but I am never too busy for friends. If any of you ever need anything or want someone to talk to or hang out with, call or e-mail me and we can figure out something to do. Nothing is more important in life than how we treat each other and the people we love.

I have also realized lately that my entire relationship with someone has been based on ME initiating text conversations, on ME finding times to visit or see eachother, and on ME reminding the other to keep in touch. I am still expecting an e-mail, but I understand that I am forgettable and easy to leave behind. Your loss.

The Life As We Know It shoot was rained out for today, but they asked me to do Fox's Past Life today instead. They called last night, but since the hours were different from the first shoot, I had to turn it down due to school hours today. Glad I did, because I woke up sick as hell this morning anyhoo.

Instead, I got a call from Cherrix Casting and will be shooting 3 days this next week for the CW's Vampire Diaries. I have been waiting for a while to get on this show, so wish me luck! We will be shooting student scenes with the principle characters on Monday, so maybe I can get close to Ian Somerhalder. He was awesome in The Rules of Attraction! Then on Thursday and Friday nights we will be shooting the Halloween episode at this party in the A, so I will be wearing my tiki-type costume from ACE 2008. Yay for wearing SOLAR garb on national TV!

so....if ya wanna see me on tv for some reason, you can catch me on Sunday on Lifetime on the 9th episode of Drop Dead Diva at 9pm. It may only be for a couple seconds, but if it hasn't been cut or changed, I should be in a two-shot close up with one of the main characters, Stacy. This is the first of 3 episodes.

This weekend is gonna be busy. I finally booked my first day on Life As We Know It, the new Katherine Heigl/ Josh Duhamel movie. Should be filming with Atlanta PD, I think. Tryin to get on Due Date with Robert Downey Jr. haha wanna see if he has any good scotch, lol.

Anyhoo. Two tests today, so gotta study!

School is stressful, Life is stressful. Started breaking out with an awful skin condition because of it, but it has almost cleared up.

Went the the first Atlanta Night Race! It was awesome.

Haven't been sleeping well at all lately. I feel tired all the time. I had a dream about you again last night. You didn't live up to the words you had spoken. Perhaps it was a glimpse of the future? Just tells me to forget about the past and not to take stock in anyone. So much talk nowadays, not enough action.!

...disappointed a the course of things lately.

On an unrelated note- Some people make huge, unnecessary, nonsensical, webs of confusion out of their own lives out of fear of doing what they really want or need, for the sake of protecting their friends (and their own asses) at times. Friends and family are left trying to decipher their little puzzle, and everyone ends up miserable.

WOW. Aren't I just a ray of sunshine?

Live a life with no regrets. Don't wait til it's too late on something and end up asking "What If?" for the rest of your life. Don't hold grudges, and don't sacrifice or compromise your long-term goals and personal well-being. The amount of time you've spent on one path of life should never be a reason not to create your own path if the one you're on makes you unhappy. Time should never be the glue that holds you together.

This has come up a lot lately in letters. I am trying not to live life as a coward behind closed doors. If you do, you're life will pass you by and you will have only been able to look in on it from the outside with a sigh. We'll see how much progress I make at this....


Love you all, honestly.
~Kat

p.s. If you are worried that some or most of this is in regards to one of you........DON'T. It has nothing to do specifically with any one of you.......or maybe it does.  You'll know.

So school has been hectic lately. Need to buy a proportional valve for my car because it is sloooooooowly leaking brake fluid. When my brake light comes on, I have to fill it up again (about every 2 wks), but I want to replace it ASAP so it doesn't just crap out on me. This has made the 40 mile round trip to and from KSU a lil stressful. I am only taking 12 hrs this semester, but my classes are ridiculous. They aren't difficult, and I am now pretty damn sure I will get A+'s in all of my classes ::knocks on wood::, but they require a TON of reading, outside homework, online homework, campus activities, TIME (which I can never find enough of). 3 out of my four classes move at a super sad pace. We literally can only seem to move at the pace of the slowest students, which seems to be the pace of  a 2nd grader if you ask me. It frustrates me to high hell. I would rather take a class that is fast-paced and hard as hell than one that dumbs me down and feels like a waste of my (extremely expensive) time. WOOOOSAHHHHH. ::sigh::

Now that I'm done with mini-rant #1, here goes mini-rant #2. I understand when a University requires basic classes for each gen. ed. subject during the completion of an undergraduate degree, but P.E. in college? KSU requires students to take HPS 1000- Fitness For Living before graduation. We have to buy the book for the class straight from the KSU Bookstore, and it has to be new (of course) because you have to submit 90% of your work through the supplemental online e-book. Each book has a unique internet code that can only be used once. This means you can't re-sell it at all.....to anyone, since it's a KSU-specific book. What a waste of  a $90 paperback piece of crap. Also, the entire book is on the supplemental site...what a great profit for them, huh? The book comes with a pedometer that you have to wear 5 days a week for 6 consecutive weeks to see if you're walking an adequate amount each day. Pardon me, but I am a grown-ass woman! If I wanna sit on my ass all day and eat Cheetos, I will. I think it's a crime to charge students several hundreds of dollars plus book and fee costs to check and see how much they have walked over a period of 50-ish days. You also have to make appointments for 3 days of exercise at their Gym/Fitness Center specifically and must go to their Health Center and take a Micro-Fit Test as well. Just making sure you actually have to walk in those buildings once during your 4 years at KSU to justify charging you a few hundred dollars in Recreation and Health fees each semester. I took one of those damn microfit tests in middle school- they test your body mass index, your flexibility, blah blah blah blah blah. My cholesterol level and body fat content isn't any of KSU's damn business. Why do you need me to run/walk a mile? You have my transcripts, you know I've done it before. UGH.....stupid stupid stupid waste of student loans.

So yeah, any days I can actually book films and shows (Mondays and Wednesdays are the only weekdays I have available now as it is), I cannot wear that stupid pedometer. Gonna have to make William wear it on those days.....stupid....damn....effing.......shit....!

I had a bunch of other things I wanted to update about that were a lil less angry, but now I can't remember many of them.....

oh yeah, Regina Spektor concert!...........which I literally just realized means taking a day off from school (it's a Tuesday) and missing 3 classes in one night. SHIT! already have tickets tho, not backing out. I guess I better make sure I don't have a test in any of those 3 classes that night. You rock, voyn ! All I heard u say was "Regina Sp......." and I was sold, completely forgot about actual life. So excited!

Other good news, William got promoted to one of the head bartenders and should have a second job, part-time, making hella good moula building convention booths for the convention season. He is really stepping up to the plate now and not dragging his ass on things......

I should be booking more work for the next couple months. There are a TON of productions moving to Atlanta this fall and I am networking out the wahzoo. I will just have to be careful scheduling things since I don't have a huge availability. Working Mondays and Wednesdays (for 12+ hrs at least each day) doesn't leave me any time to complete tasks for Thursday classes that were assigned the previou Tuesday. And it means doing most of my courseload's work on the weekends. Poop. I haven't been sleeping well AT ALL lately because of stress and school. Appetite and (shhh......sex drive...) have gone out the window. I've lost around 15 lbs in the past month. Luckily though, since I'm enrolled full-time I am able to be put back on my dad's insurance, which means I can go make some much-needed visits to the doctor and the other doctor and the other doctor and the specialist and so on and so on (again). Not lookin forward to being picked and prodded at, but it's necessary.

I have been keeping up with people through snail mail lately because, to be honest, it's nice to get something in the mail that is not spam or a bill. I'm writing to Sylvia (whom I finally got to spend time with), Yma (whom I love and miss so much), Max, and a few others. It's a lovely way to stay connected, and all the letters get filed away and added to the collection of other nostalgic things I collect. If any of you wanna be pen-pal types, comment and lemme know and we can exchange addresses.

Anyhoo, sry for the long post but it is a bit overdue.

Still Yours,
~Kat

Classes start tomorrow! Taking 12 hrs this semester. Excited to be back!

Drop Dead Diva went really well. I will have brief appearances in Episodes 9, 11, and 12! No speaking parts yet though. They wrapped for season one and have gotten such a fan base that they will be moving to Fox network soon. The last day of filming I was introduced to the shows Casting Director and he loved my look. Info was exchanged. I also booked a couple photo shoots with some Photogs I met there. Things have been going really well for me in the entertainment industry since I started just 2 months ago. yay!

These next couple months, I will be working on two more TV Series, one on The CW and one on Fox and hopefully another couple feature films. The trailer for The Blind Side came out and is awesome. It pulls at my heart-strings.

I'm feeling much better today! Had weird mood swings yesterday. I guess hearing those 3 simple (yet complicated) words from the man you love can really turn your mood around.



Love

Looks like Wiley Coyote to me...

    So call time was 7:30 yesterday morning at the W Hotel in Atlanta, Which was B-E-A-Utiful by the way. William dropped me off and I walked to a Starbucks, thank god! The one on the way to the hotel was shut down and I am out of coffee filters at home, so I was in desperate need of my morning fix. We filmed upstairs in the Whiskey bar which was also beautiful, but very small for 100 people (cast, crew, extras, hotel employees, etc.) We filmed the same scene from 5 different angles over the course of about 11 hours and had an hour for lunch. It was a ton of fun. I met a few people from this agency I'm looking into and they all seem satisfied with their service, so I'm considering getting an agent to help book me more work.
   It was hilarious though because some extras were supposed to pull out their camera phones and pretend to snap shots of one of the guest stars, but one kid actually snapped a picture. Brooke Elliot, the main character of the show saw him do it and stopped the whole scene and pitched a fit until the crew made him delete the picture and kicked him off set without pay. He would have been able to stay, but when they asked him if he actually took the picture, he said no, but then when they searched his photo album, they found one of her and kicked him out. I just laughed at how pissed she got and the fact that when they brought in sandwiches she pulled the little dinky piece of meat and cheese off it and just ate that and left the bread. So pampered.

Anyhoo, Bessie is coming over today to practice some poses for our upcoming bike show in Athens. She has never posed on a bike before. We're gonna go tanning and spend the whole day picking out the right outfits and shoes, hair, makeup and all. I sound like such a prissy girl now, but I'd rather wear a T-shirt and Jeans anyday.

Love you all!
~Kat

They called me back to film another episode of Drop Dead Diva today. Wish me luck please!

Filming The Fat Boy Chronicles on Thursday of this week and on Tuesday and Wednesday of next week. Then supposed to film a club scene for Drop Dead Divas next week too, just don't know what day yet. I have an audition for the lead role in a new short film coming up. It's a vampire movie called The Diary of Kaitlin Smith and it is filmed through her eyes as she makes her transformation. I would love to film a vampire flick, and would like to be a big part of it so it doesn't turn out cheesy. Only downside is that it shoots in Valdosta, so the pay (i know, a short film is actually paying!) would have to be sufficient to pay for a hotel room down there for a lil while. Wish me luck!

Also, I got my friend Bessie to do the car show with me in Athens in August so we can pool and split the money we make and both come out on top.

I really wanna get some of my girlfriends together to go dancing soon at club LiFE, which took over club Fever. Any gals wanna go? We get in free on the list and get some free drinks on the house if you're on the list with me. Just comment and we can pick an evening to go.

Love you all,

Kat

Thanks to voyn  for giving me the heads up on the new Regina Spektor cd. The song "Laughing With" is so inspiring, think i'm gonna learn how to play it. hehe

Exit Ophelia - "Believe"

Things have been busy for me despite being on unemployment. I have been working a lot of odd jobs lately and doing a lot of networking. I recently worked as an extra on the movie The Blind Side with Sandra Bullock, Tim McGraw, and Kathy Bates. Just as an extra though. I just finished filming a scene on Drop Dead Diva, the new lifetime show that premiered last night. I will be in the 9th episode. In that, I am a featured extra, meaning I got to work with the stars of the show. I now have two more possible tv shows- Vampire Diaries and Wildflowers. I also have an audition for the third TWILIGHT movie! yay! Things have been going great. Been doing some promotional modeling jobs lately and might get a solid part-time job promoting a couple different liquor brands at clubs in Atlanta.

World, Here I come.

I miss you Moo-Cow. I have a present on it's way to you.

Love you all,
Kat

Got the role on Drop Dead Divas! It's a small role. Gonna feature my tattoos. Hope my parents don't watch it, haha!

Things have been going well lately. Been picking up more promotional jobs. $100 for 6 hrs isn't bad. Waiting to hear back about a new role on Drop Dead Divas. Wish me luck! Been staying in shape lately. Lost 15 lbs just by eating healthy. Going to start jogging everyday now. Almost completely quit smoking. Fall Semester is paid for and I can't wait to start back. Just trying to improve my lifestyle over the summer. Getting better. Love you all. Call me sometime!

After being out of school for over two and a half years, I completed one semester at Kennesaw State and I have made the Dean's List! I am doing much better than I ever thought I would. I used to have such high hopes, but things have been looking up for me lately and I am starting to realize again that those hopes are all possible.

Yay! Someone finally called me back. I have a job interview at Six Flags tomorrow for their cash control position. Basically I would be working 8pm to 4 am (which is not ideal), counting and balancing all the cash and coin from all the vendors and making all the bank deposits for Six Flags vendors. Should be working full time and may have benefits, but not sure how long a job like this would last, so I might have to pass. We'll see tomorrow when I get more info. Wish me luck!.